disappointed

what is it to care
to love
to give

to ask of nothing in return...

when i see
that all that i do
is of little significance

your preference to do other things
doesn't that indicate something to me?

your willingness to spend time doing other things
with others,
playing and having fun
considering not my feelings
just blindly believing i will understand

i do
and i did
i have been....but for how long
for how long can i be a spectator in this
just numbing myself every time to it all

people say actions speak louder than words
i believe its true
i know its true
you obviously don't feel the same way as i do...


jealousy
true, its something we ought to curb
but sometimes
it verges on anger, irritation and despair

the lines are gray
its not that i'm expecting alot for all that i do

but who in this earth lives without some recognition,
a little bit of accommodation
a little bit of returned love
i believe,
will go a long way to quench the soul

only one can do that
only one can shower that agape love
He is the perfect one

yet i am not Him



disappointed